Nameless Dread

[Brandon]

I feel such tremendous pressure anymore, even though it isn't coming from any clearly-defined place. On my shoulders are the weights of shame, guilt, a nameless dread, and responsibility, and they're damn near crushing me. I feel as if the world is standing before me in an impatient pose, waiting for me to make the next big decision or finish another assignment, and if I fail to do so, it will run over me and leave me in the dust.

I can't enjoy anything anymore. I'm positively obsessed with how well I'm doing and how the "finished product" will look. Even when I'm with friends, I'm constantly obsessing over "how well" I'm acting around them and if the social interaction was a "success." It's utterly bizarre.

Can anyone relate? Or am I just insane?

[Spooky]

Uhm, either you're just a perfectionist, trying too hard, or this is some kind of joke that went RIGHT OVER MY HEAD :lol

[Jeanette X]

Freud called what you feel "free-floating anxiety". How long has this been going on?

[Sicktodeathmx]

I'm the same way... Only with my perfectionism, it stresses me out so bad that I can't function for a bit. You should go to therapy.. It's the goods

[Geggy]

christ, jeannette, you alway have answers for everything, do you? do you cheat with the INTERNET?

[Cosmo Electrolux]

Jeannette knows all! Worship her. Now.

[Jeanette X]

:bow :)

[mburbank]

While anti-anxiety and anti-depressant drugs are WIDELY overperscribed, checking in with your doctor would be good. Get them to reccomend a therapist, and see what they think. They can do a great deal of good, if they are actually called for.

In the meantime, remind yourself often that these feelings are just that, temporary feelings, and not descriptive of some wider reality.

[Blackguy]

http://www.zoloft.com/images/headers/header_13.gif :( :( :(

[Mike P]

While anti-anxiety and anti-depressant drugs are WIDELY overperscribed, checking in with your doctor would be good. Get them to reccomend a therapist, and see what they think. They can do a great deal of good, if they are actually called for.

In the meantime, remind yourself often that these feelings are just that, temporary feelings, and not descriptive of some wider reality.

It's not all that easy. First, you go to your doctor whom tells you go to a therapist. Then, you go to the therapist who decides whether or not you need the drug, and tells you to go to the psychiatrist. They might give you a sample, though. Then you go to the psychiatrist, who just says "Yeah, you need this."

Then you go and get whatever he prescribed, and you forget to take it sometimes and lapse into severe depression until you remember to take it. Oh, and they keep upping the doses.

[Blackguy]

Wow. You're pretty experienced huh....*clears throat* I mean, yo you krakkas iz wak and crazy off the shizzle biznach. bling bling. yo tired depressed ass.

[Mike P]

Er... shizzle my nizzle? I have no idea what that means.

But yeah, I'm experienced with it. Except right now I'm really hyper because of lack of sleep, taking my meds, and the fact that my website that no one will ever look at is working and actually shaping up to be an all right site.

[Blackguy]

yo comics aint not funny. :)

[Protoclown]

Gee. What an ironic and hilarious character. I mean, side splitting. Really. :|

[Blackguy]

You know it bitch.

[Protoclown]

Oh my god, I seriously and sincerely almost spat juice all over my monitor. Because of what you said. It being so gut-achingly funny and all. I'm not even being facetious at all, for real, I am "rolling on the floor with laughter" every time you post.

[Blackguy]

All right, you dont have to milk it, I think we can all sense your scarcasm.

[mburbank]

Wow, what a bad character. I mean, do the character or don't. Unless the character is about being a bad character. In which case, carry on.

[Protoclown]

I mean, it's just the fact that the name of the character is Blackguy, and then, as you might expect, it's a black man for the avatar. But as you might NOT expect, it's a clean-cut corporate friendly SUV- in-all-probability-driving black guy. And then, just to turn things on their ear even more, he talks like he's straight out the ghetto, yo.

The irony is just so insanely clever, so well and carefully crafted, it just boggles the mind. Who could be behind this character of Shakespearean proportions? Who indeed?

[Mike P]

yo comics aint not funny. :)

I'm really confused about this. I think I know what it means, but I have no idea if it really means what I mean. Argh, it hurts my brain...

[Blackguy]

yo comics aint not funny. :)

I'm really confused about this. I think I know what it means, but I have no idea if it really means what I mean. Argh, it hurts my brain...

Daaaaaaamn. You is a stupid Ckrakka. I read you damn comics, An dey aint funny!

[Mike P]

Well, you see, first you used the double negative "ain't not", which renders the sentence like this:

yo comics funny

Then you used the smiling emoticon, :), making me thing you were happy or joyful or something. Your own stupidity renders others the same! REPENT!

:die

[Protoclown]

Holy smokes! NOW he's changed his avatar to a white guy! I just can't keep up with this guy. He's breaking new ground with every post!

[Blackguy]

Well Blah Blah Blah which renders the sentence like this Blah comics Blah

yo aint comics funny blah

Then you used the smiling emoticon, :), which was claerly scarcasm, But Im a dipshit so this made me think you were happy or joyful or something. Your own geneius renders others the retarded! Keep up the good work!

me--> :die: <----you

Tru dat tru dat.

[Mike P]

Oh, I get it. You're supposed to be a sterotypical black man, and therefore you're one of the stupidest mother fuckers alive! Good show!

No offense meant to non-stereotypical black men.

[Anonymous]

Yeah. Wouldn't want to offend the 'good ones!'

[Sicktodeathmx]

A mod should take out that pic from Black guy's sig.

[Brandon]

To steer this away from the comic genius that is Blackguy..

SSRIs (I've taken Prozac and Zoloft) haven't helped at all with the problem, and I've been in and out of therapy for a few years. I wasn't expecting an outright cure, but I was given some cognitive strategies to deal with maladaptive thoughts.

Still.. it's very easy to slip back into old habits.

[Supafly345]

Tru dat tru dat.STOP STEALING MY SLANGUAGE, MONEY. DATS WACK YO.

[kellychaos]

A mod should take out that pic from Black guy's sig.

I will not stand idly by whilst this site is stained with the vile juices of political correctness. Out damn spot!

[Jeanette X]

To steer this away from the comic genius that is Blackguy..

SSRIs (I've taken Prozac and Zoloft) haven't helped at all with the problem, and I've been in and out of therapy for a few years. I wasn't expecting an outright cure, but I was given some cognitive strategies to deal with maladaptive thoughts.

Still.. it's very easy to slip back into old habits.

Maybe you should ask your psych to try another kind of meds? :/

[Sicktodeathmx]

I have been treated for Manic depression for almost 9 years now. They have put me on Zoloft, Wellbutrin, Paxill, Prozac, Paxill agan, and now Wellbutrin again... Plus endless hours of therapy. It doesn't work. I don't get any pleasure from the therapy, and after a few months, the meds stop working.

[Mike P]

Do they keep you on the same dosage of meds, or do they up the dosage? For my meds, they put me on ever-increasing dosage until they were sure they worked.

[Sicktodeathmx]

I would start off at a low dosage (150 mg Wellbutrin).. They increased my dosage to 450. Didn't work after a while. I ended up on 80 mg of Prozac, and 50 of Paxill, and it didn't work after a while.

[Mike P]

Wow... perhaps there are some outside forces that are negatively affecting you and lowering the effectiveness of the meds?

[Sicktodeathmx]

Well, that used to be the case.. And my friend's and my psch blame my parents, so I am moving out soon. Hopefully that will help me flourish and become happy again. That's something I really need to experience.. Independence.

[Big Papa Goat]

feelevil gonna bust a cap in yo ass. >:

[Skulhedface]

I was always depressed, and guess what?

I took no drugs for it. It's a normal part of being human so you know, I took care of it the old fashioned way. I dealt with it.

[Schimid]

BUT THEIR DEPRESSION IS SO MUCH WORSE

DON'T TRY TO CHANGE THEM SKUL

[Skulhedface]

In that case... I have a handful of pills I'll sell someone for $30.

[Jeanette X]

I was always depressed, and guess what?

I took no drugs for it. It's a normal part of being human so you know, I took care of it the old fashioned way. I dealt with it.
*ahem*
Clinical depression is different than the depression most people deal with. It is a medical condition, not simply a valley in the hills and valleys of life.

[Anonymous]

DRUGS ARE NOT THE ANSWER

[Brandon]

DRUGS ARE NOT THE ANSWER
Y'know, the more I think about antidepressants, the more I begin to question their merit. I have to wonder how much of their usefulness is based off of placebo effect: the people I knew who wanted Prozac to work felt better on it, and the people who were resistant experienced no change.

[Mike P]

DRUGS ARE NOT THE ANSWER
Y'know, the more I think about antidepressants, the more I begin to question their merit. I have to wonder how much of their usefulness is based off of placebo effect: the people I knew who wanted Prozac to work felt better on it, and the people who were resistant experienced no change.

Paxil seems to work. I'm terribly pessimisstic about everything that concerns me, yet the medicine worked. Of course, that's just me. I'm sure quite a few "medicines" are based on the placebo effect, though.

[Protoclown]

Drugs are almost CERTAINLY ridiculously overprescribed, regardless of your stance on the issue. They are too often doled out as a quick fix to a problem that they don't really help, but merely distract from instead. In some cases they may very well help, but in many others they are definitely inappropriate.

I've known a lot of people who have been on anti-depressant drugs (prozac, paxil, etc) and many of them have told me they'd rather be depressed than carry on as the emotional zombies they were while under the effect of the drug. Is it better to feel sad than feel nothing at all? Apparently, to these people anyway.

[Brandon]

People are placing a lot of blind faith in medication, I notice. In discovering the link between chemical imbalances and mood disorders, I think a lot of professionals completely excluded the possibilty of developmental and environmental factors.

Take social anxiety for example. While biochemistry may play a role in increasing/decreasing one's succeptibility to anxious feelings, the idea that fear in social situations is without an cognitive component is utterly absurd.

[Anonymous]

this country is full of addicts

[kellychaos]

I'm on the fence on this one. While I don't know about administering psychotropic drugs for EVERY little thing, I've also done some reading about sanitariums and how the medical establishment used to deal with mental health. Pretty gruesome techniques, methinks.

[Dole]

There is nothing more satisfying than when SHIT CHARACTERS get genuinely annoyed and post out of character:

"All right, you dont have to milk it, I think we can all sense your scarcasm."

Hehe. and is 'scarcasm' a more hurtful version of sarcasm?

[Dole]

...and it never ceases to amaze me how many of the people here are on medication. If this is representative of america's youth generally then its no wonder the drug companies make such obscene amounts of money.

[noob3]

i have THE worst social anxiety, i'm blank all the time to a point where you could describe me as braindead and when I do fucking think it's all pointless and i can't even articulate any of it coherently, i can barley even get words out of my mouth. and all these people are drugged up because they're sad or somthing. fuck you. maybe if you didn't suck so goddamn much you wouldn't be so fucking depressed. idiots.

[Dole]

Have you considered a career in social work, noob?

[GADZOOKS]

this country is full of addicts

Listen to Doopa, her avatar was ZOLOFT :eek

[Anonymous]

i have THE worst social anxiety, i'm blank all the time to a point where you could describe me as braindead and when I do fucking think it's all pointless and i can't even articulate any of it coherently, i can barley even get words out of my mouth. and all these people are drugged up because they're sad or somthing. fuck you. maybe if you didn't suck so goddamn much you wouldn't be so fucking depressed. idiots.

You don't type so well, either.

[noob3]

I have THE worst social anxiety. I'm blank to a point where you could describe me as braindead, and when I do fucking think all of it's pointless. I can't even articulate any of it coherently, I can barley even get words out of my mouth. And all of these people are drugged up because they're sad or somthing? Fuck you. Maybe if you didn't suck so goddamn much you wouldn't be so fucking depressed, Idiots.

[noob3]

fag

[Anonymous]

i have THE worst social anxiety, i'm blank all the time to a point where you could describe me as braindead and when I do fucking think it's all pointless and i can't even articulate any of it coherently, i can barley even get words out of my mouth. and all these people are drugged up because they're sad or somthing. fuck you. maybe if you didn't suck so goddamn much you wouldn't be so fucking depressed. idiots.

You don't type so well, either.

[noob3]

YOU'RE SO MEAN TO ME