how do you feel?
 

how do you feel?

about life, the universe, and everything?

there are a few books that i read every few years, mostly cause i own them, or because i like them, or it makes me feel smart to say "im reading Crime and Punishment by dostoyevsky"

well, through a lot of random chance a omnibus copy of the Hitchhikers Guide to the Galaxy came back into my possesion (a highly improbable event, i thought it was burned when my exwifes, no kidding here, trailer burned down). to suddenly get it back after a few really hard years of my life made me really, really, really, really happy.

i read the whole thing through in less than a week, and i ended up sould searching. you see, my whole life plan was to have fun, adventure, and really wild things. i have had some of this in spades. i have also had hurt, sorrow, and boredom on epic levels.

to be blunt, i am not particularly happy with myself or my life, but at this point have absolutely no idea how to change things.

so anyhoo,

how do you feel about your life, do you have any kind of philosophy that you live by, and what are your hopes for the future?

I'm living it up right now. I'm sure that won't last.

I'm not happy, but anything could change that. I'd be stupid if I didn't think that I still have plenty of time to be miserable later and just be happy today.

But something I want, the only thing I want, is out of my reach for the time being and the only thing I can do is wait for the opportunity to open up in about eight months.

that is sort of the spot i am in too FZ. i just have to try and stay chipper for a little longer.

and i cant afford ITT :( goddamn ivy league schools.

I am so used to being a fuckup, I don't belive things can go right anymore, and if it seems that way, it must be because I've fucked up somewhere else.

Worse, I have started taking pride in this attitude.

It's the absolute worst when there's no end in sight. Until the beginning of this year, I was just wandering through things without any real goal or end. I might've been one of those people who never left town. Though, your situation's surely different.

People just need to find something.

I'd say sell your house and become a drifter. It's the ultimate in freedom and you can go wherever you want because there's no home to go back to.

I've been happy before. I used to be an optimist, but now I think that I can't even be bothered to be either optimistic or pessimistic.

As far as life goes? Well, I feel bad for it.

This is directed to all of you: WAAAH WAAAAAH WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

I think you're projecting your sadness onto us, Mr. Robot. I'm perfectly content at the moment.

Everyone dies alone.

:)

your evil roboticism hurt my feelings.

WAAAH WAAAAAH WAAAAAHHHHH!!!!!!!!!

i feel pretty

I've had a lot of things that mattered to me stripped away, and all of my real-life friends have become more distant or vanished entirely. It's given me a lot of time for self-reflection, and I decided that the best thing I can do is invest in myself because that's something no one can take away from me.

So I started to diet and lift weights, and I think it's taught me a lot about myself. In the span of a few months, I feel like a completely different person - it feels like I did ten years of growing up in 4 months. All of my tastes are different, my work ethic is better, and life at its core is better; but I still feel like I could be doing a lot more and the loneliness is beginning to really sink its hooks into me.

I'm working out, too. For almost the same reason.

i have been working out too :)

we should start some sort of i-mockery fitness thread in the sports area. give encouragement, complain, etc.

and chojin, i promise we will be entertaining each other in the very near future. ;)

I need to go on a diet. I have started to get a little pudgy. :(

I've been keeping in shape by running a lap around my block every day, but I'm gonna start working out too.

I'm eating pie!

Just got back from eating some enchiladas. I think Im firmly setting the blame for current weight on the Mexicans and their awesome food. :(

NONE OF YOU HAVE GIRLFREINDS THATS YOUR PROBLEM STUPIDS.

thats cause we're fat an jobless.

If your fat, jobless, don't have a woman, and are depressed then I have an answer for you. It's called substance abuse.

They should just rename this the"excuses, please pity me I have found a way to benefit from pity" thread.