[sadie]

since i've been straight, it's been way different hanging out with the same people i used to get wasted with. last night, for example, at a friend's birthday party, everyone was stoned and on various hallucinogenics. and there was this huge vibe of self-consciousness permeating the scene. it was annoying the way these people were continuously apologizing for their obnoxiousness or their inability to think coherently. "sorry i'm so fucked up," one friend said. i was like, was that NOT your plan? shut up and enjoy your buzz, at least.