[McMock]

It's very hard to come up with something entertaining on the spot. I could be a spoilsport and not attempt, but that would be weak - no matter the even weaker excuse I'd come up with. I'll try something, and if all of you think it's ridiculous - you can give me a good old mocking.

I'm gonna talk about my emotional life. My deepest feelings, such as love, regret, and the missing out on those things. That's what it's all about, isn't it? None of that cerebral shit. We can do without that. It's the emotions that do it. It's those that we remember. You don't remember a good argument you had - you remember a good laugh or a shared bit of cry. Emotions. It's the best thing there is!

I remember it like it was yesterday. My first regret. Deeply in love with this red-haired girl I was. I would see her haircut everywhere. Strange enough, that was what I loved most about her. She had big breasts as well, but then so many girls had those. Sure, I probably wouldn't have fallen in love with her if she hadn't had those - but they didn't light the spark. It was her hair. And I kept seeing that everywhere I went. Not, you know... it was still on somebodies head. But it was like with those cars, when you have a volvo, the amount of volvos goes up so much. Same thing with that girls hair. I was in love with her so much, and I could never tell her. I did not want to hear her say no. And that wasn't even, I realise later, because I was afraid she's say no because it would break my heart - it was because it would mean I'd have to give up my dream. Dreams... aren't those what life is really all about? You dream, and you try to achieve what you dream of. It's never as good, but it's kind of fun still - cause you get to have new dreams then.

I've cried over the silliest things. I feel bad, often, even now. I felt bad for making fun of people in the other thread, even. I also had a whole lot of fun, and generally - the feeling is one of contentment - but I'll have a bit of a cry sometimes nevertheless. As a kid I'd feel so alone. Nobody to talk to about my emotions. Fortunately, I have you guys for that now.

Come on. I can't keep telling this story. I need a hug. Gimme me a hug!

*smooch*