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Everyone goes through this. Its called social dissonance and its the act of judgeing our own actions by comparison to others to create a sense of normality, and a comfort zone of individuality. Frankly I often wonder other people talk about and if I should be having a better conversation, but after talking to so many people from so many walks of life, all I've realized that all people talk about is the same stupid shit.

If your worried about whether or not you're comfortable with your close friends anymore, its probably closer to whether or not you're comfortable with your own self. I don't think its nessessarily a bad thing that you're only comfortable with other people if you have a drink or you're stoned, thats more of way of showing others that your comfortable talking to them. So really, you're relieving thier anxiety and making them open up more to you which is what makes you more comfortabe talking, not the booze or drugs in your system.

Anyway, I'm only 22 and I drink fairly occasionally and I smoke pot very often, very often now that I'm done school for the summer, and I don't really care. It doesn't bother me. I'd think I'd only have a problem if I couldn't be happy without it. You should probably just take a week off, and get it out of your system. You'll feel better, and you'll enoy it more when you start again.