[McMock]

When I'm depressed, I don't want to do shit all, because I believe I'm gonna fail anyway and I don't believe it'll be fun. What gets me out of them, and fuck if I know exactly how I do it, is doing something that makes me proud about myself. I don't think you can plan it, you just grab that apportunity when it comes along, and then you feel proud about yourself, and you're back to normal.

Maybe this is some help to you. Probably not, because you don't believe in anything when you're depressed. Whatever. The cure to your depression is inside you. You'll stumble upon it sooner or later.

One of the things I feel are very real about a depression is how it's a lot like being really, really happy, in that when you're in it - it feels like it will never end. But when you're really happy, you become sad eventually - and when you're really sad, you'll become happy again. It's all balance. Maybe the less you think about it, the better it works. Uh. Don't know. Good luck.