Ya know, I was just in a really bad mood when I posted on here. I get like that sometimes. I just hope IS forgives me for spouting it at him on AIM...
My posts on here are in many cases meant to be funny, but the reason that it works so well is because it contains a grain of truth. I will always be, on some level, a narcissist. I've found that one must love themselves before they can love someone else. And yes, I'll admit, I'm quite happy with my intelligence, improving physique, and recent success with the ladies.
It's also true that in the past I've sabotaged myself. I was being honest there. I don't know why; some part of me might be masochistic. But I'm getting better at avoding all that. At least with the latest "open relationship" thing, I had something to gain - it was more of a calculated risk than anything else.
My improvement means that I can change and there might still be hope. And so, I find that some of the answers to my quest of self-actualization might come from the most unlikely of things: other people.
Regardless, my conclusions toward libertarianism and anarcho-capitalism were not a result of my egoism. After all, why wouldn't I just support a monarchy where I was king if such were the case?