[Sethomas]

What can I do to make my life better? I have a feeling that even if serious advise were offered, I'd be too stubborn to take it. But hey, it's worth a shot.

I'm a 21-year old male in Indiana. I attend college at Indiana University, having been kicked out of the University of Chicago twice for being insane. I'm a bit over-weight due to crazy pills that made me fat, but I'm losing weight by diet and exercise. I've had flings and such, but no relationship for years. I don't know if I even want a relationship, but hey, getting laid is nice. The main aspect of my psychosis is that I think to much, leading me to develop my own theory of religion and subsequently write a book about it. I can derive meaning from innocuous details in light of the interconnectivity of matter relating to a grand theme in the universe. I don't understand why the universe needs a theme or why it should exist in the first place. I don't even know if there's anything wrong with me than the lack of desire to live, which I'm used to.

I have dozens of acquaintances with whom I can socialize, but all my real friends are miles and miles away. I have a Mensa IQ but refuse to learn to study, so I'll never succeed academically. I can't imagine living beyond grad school, mostly because the thought petrifies me.

I could go on.

Hey, throw out some ideas, or contribute your own sap stories! It'll be fun for everyone!