[kahljorn]

wanting a benevolent god is also self-interested for a couple of reasons:
"Oh man gods good and he loves us specifically so hes gonna hook us up with a cool life yo"
"If we pray to god he will bless us"
"god has a plan for the universe"
"Our life has meaning"

and also because without a benevolent god is undermines our whole conception of striving to be good. When we call something god we are basically saying, "These are our ideals". Without god, to some people, there are no ideals.

stuff like that. Without a god most of those become meaningless, as far as they are based on god.