[Sethomas]

I think I have a pretty unique perspective on the minds of killers, seeing as I've acted out enough on killer impulses to be committed.

The first thing to understand is that one can almost guarantee that his justifications for the killers were post-hoc. The impulse to kill will install itself in the mind, and if left alone it becomes a comfortable misery.

Social rejection most always results in introspection--what is it about me that makes people hate me--and not resulting in finding faults in others for which they would dislike you. It's a natural tendency to direct fault inwards in a working mind. I have little doubt that his mind did the same thing. However, the impulse to kill began ingrained in him. He had to justify to himself why he would commit an act of insanity, lest he realize that he was insane. When confronted with the fact that he was about to kill people for no reason, he found faults in others simply to save face from the fact that he knew he was damaged. He was angry that he was insane, so he had to perpetuate a lie that he was not insane. That's why he made such a media event out of it.

When I drove three hours to kill someone, I knew I was batshit insane. I just rationalized that being insane was ultimately necessary for a transcendental purpose I never claimed to understand, but whose outline was laid clear out before me. I had a strong feeling in the early phases of madness that I would be stopped by police en route, but I didn't accommodate that thought enough to give it a viable plan. (One reason was that it required in-depth thought, and I refused to give as much to my fixations.) When I was stopped by the police, I had mere seconds to choose between killing them or abandoning ship, and I chose the latter because something so haphazard wouldn't mesh well with transcendental meaning. This is odd because I knew that I would have killed if there had been ONE officer because that'd RSVP my spot on death row, which I wouldn't mind, but when I was pulled over there were two. This would have meant getting shot on the side of the road 150 miles from home, and that's it, which seemed rather silly to me.

So, yeah. The killings had next to nothing to do with social tension, otherwise he would have been very discriminating in his targets. The fact that he said he was punishing some iniquity is countered by the methodical and calculated lack of method or calculation. He killed because he was programmed to kill, and he tried to ameliorate the shame of being a madman by painting himself hap-hazardly as a hero of some sort.