[mburbank]

" I think this is more that I would like to cloak violent drunkenness in chivalry. I think this is the ultimate form of moronics."
-KKK

If I read this correctly, you are agreeing with folks that you are, at very least, behaving poorly and you don't want to change yourself, you want beliefs you admire to change in ways that would include you, while excluding others for doing exactly the things you do.

The very first thing you should do until you resolve this conflict is stop pontificating. There's nothing wrong with human flaws. Everybody has them. But human flaws coupled with preaching and displays of superiority makes you a blowhard mook.