I think by God, he/she/it means "ANYONE WHO'LL PAY ATTENTION"
why else would someone write bad poetry and post it on a message board?
Its too damn whiny and pathetic to be taken seroiusly. Let alone it shows how weak and pathetic it wants to look, which is another attention whore technique. So whatever. Just end it, if you want to see "God" again.
silly whiny goths.
