Wouldn't you be tired? Wouldn't you be sad?
Wouldn't you just feel
depressed , to have everyhting you believe in, everything you hold dear to your heart, violently smashed and proved false by all to bear witness?
Wouldn't you lose all hope after you are forced into a submission of "not caring". How terrible it would be to betray ones' inner feelings, simply to stop the hateful truth crashing on ones' poorly though out defenses.
Personaly, I would kill myself. (wink, wink, nudge, nudge, nowhatimean?)
PS: Remember, God does not like suicude! 