[Kitsa]

Just now back from my kid's first birthday party. I feel absolutely shitty without being able to put a finger on precisely why.

I think it's in part because my dad said things like "keep it moving, get the gifts unwrapped" and other impatient-with-proceedings phrases, and as a result I felt like I was scrambling from gifts to cake to cleanup without anything really sinking in or being enjoyed (at least by me).

Then Mr. Kitsa had a lot to say about how grateful I should be that everyone (including and especially himself) had done me this big favor by showing up, and although I am grateful I also paid for dinner and alcohol at a nice restaurant so I don't feel that people were really 100% put-out by coming.

I guess parties just ultimately end up being a big letdown, nature of the beast. I would have held up a lot better if certain parties had kept their mouths shut.