I am so sad i came back to i-mockery

[Big McLargehuge]

i am stuck in a shitty town cause i can't make enough money to get out. i have tons of bills that i struggle to pay. My dad died 3 weeks ago. He was 50 years old and had struggled with his health his whole life. the day he died we went to the house of a friend of his to winterize it. we ate lunch at a old style grocery store with a deli in it. 4 hours later he was dead. and two days ago my girlfriend told me over the phone that we need to take a hiatus because she found a boy that is interested in her. He is a tiny hipster who i have never met. we have been together for 5 years and she just tossed me away. she has been drinking everyday for 3 weeks and i was talking to her when she hadn't had a drink for 24 hours and she was all grumpy and jittery. I love her more than anyone i have ever known, and she says the same about me. she said she told this boy that i came first always, and somehow that makes it worse. Please make me feel better.

sorry about the terrible grammar i have been massively self medicating and i can't really see straight