wtf do you do

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i don't even know why i'm bothering to post this because i'm sure it'll get like 3 replies while the next piece of shit left behind by ultraperfectsportsx will hit 6 pages, but fuck it. just recently i've realized how disgustingly addicted to cigarettes i've become. i'm also drinking and smoking a lot more pot than i'd like to be, and i don't know why... now it's getting to the point where i can't be comfortable around my closest friends unless i'm smoking something or drinking something, and it seems they are the same way. otherwise it's just boring and awkward, and i can't wait to get away (or get the aforementioned crutches). is this a casualty of getting older? i honestly just don't know what the fuck else there is to do. and i know 'get new friends' seems like the obvious answer, but it's not them, it's me. so if there are any straight edge people, please offer some non-fucking lame advice... wtf do you do? watch tv? eat junk and get fat? talk about the weather? then what?