hello, this is me

[noob3]

everything i do or say or write is pointless and probably just somthing i've heard before a slang or a word or a phrase, i know what some of it means but most of it is absolutley foreign to me. my mind is just a catalogue of shit. i just speak and speak and speak, i have no grasp of the english language whatsoever. i could talk to you all day about ash. i'd repeat myself over and over because i can't articulate my feelings towards anything. my thoughts are in another language, a language i cannot hear. maybe i'm tone deaf to this mystical tongue, i don't know. i'm typing now, arn't i? so maybe i do have an okay hold on my english.

or do i?

do you know?

do you know, my friend?

are you my friend?

i don't know.

are you still reading this?

are you?

please tell me you are

humour me

humour me please

tell me i'm delightful

i'll be happier that way

my face will gleam with a smile

tell me you love me

tell me you want me more than anything

i am a need

you need me

don't you fucking lie to me

i'll cut your fucking throat