ahh

[maggiekarp]

I was explaining to a friend of mine how I think people may be talking about me behind my back, using a meme I posted in my LJ as an example. Because the meme asks for people to post if they ever had a crush on me, the group o' pals could be chatting about how desperate I am or how I cut myself and spaghetti sauce comes out, whatever.

Me: It's just a meme, but it could be taken so many ways. Especially by myself.
Me: I'm very critical on everything I do, and because I think of them they become true, and I fear other people thinking bad things true - 'cause then they might really BE true. Although they'/re made true by myself thinking them to be true, atleast subconciously
Me: The only important thing is what people think of themselves, after all
mans: yeah..
mans: can i ask you something?
Me: Sure
mans: did something happen to you?
Me: Besides years of teaching myself the sacred art of self-hatred, not a damn thing
mans: no offence but, you seem a little messed up for someone who's just lived a normal life
Me: It's all in my head
mans: ahh



I think in such a way my friend thinks I may have been traumatized in my youth. DON'T I FEEL SPECIAL