In this thread I will whine at about jobs and my stupid life

[Anonymous]

So, today I had an interview with some bigshot technical recruitment firm. I think while I was there I realized the full extent of my hatred and contempt for the corporate world. I've known I hated it for a long time now, but I think it was extra clear to me today. My stomach was in knots my chest was having lightening bolts of pain shooting through it and I sort of felt like vomiting. Just the idea of having to go back into work like that again makes me feel dead. I've gotten to the point now where I can't even pretend to be interested in a job like that, or mask my disgust at the thought of it.
For a while now I have been having obsessive thoughts about becoming a farmer. I seem to think that this would somehow make me happy, but really I have no idea if that is true or not. I think it is purely based on the fact that it is the complete opposite of everything I hate about corporate life. It is most likely purely romantic.
It seems impossible to not constantly get dragged back into doing these computer jobs. Everytime I leave and think I will find something else to do, I end right back where I started. And it is all because of money. There just seems to be nothing else I can do that would even vaguely compete with the money I make doing those kind of jobs. I wish so much that I never started working in tech jobs. I think about that a lot. But really I have no right to bitch because in a lot of ways it is an advantage. I just think it screwed my life up
So after I left the interview I ended up accidentally driving 20 minutes outside of the city and ended up at a farm. I swear I didn't do it intentially (how would I even know where a farm was?). I just zoned out an went the wrong way. That was weird
So, I am upset. And I have no idea what to do with my life. Just the same shit over and over.
And now some other place called about a job and I need to go call them back and hope I don't vomit the sandwich I just ate in the process.
Drama.