I spent two weeks in a mental facility

[The One and Only...]

Meh. Sometimes I feel like I've hit a wall and I just can't improve any farther in certain areas, which gets me depressed, and then I convince myself that I can, and I get angry at myself for not having improved yet. At that point I consider suicide as a redeeming measure and way to enter a world where improvement is irrelevant. I just can't forgive myself for failing to reach my potential.

Other times I get angry when I think about our political structure, and then follow that anger with delusions of a bloody, violent revolution which I would never really endorse.