Drugs for mental/spiritual exploration

[Vibecrewangel]

Kelly -

Have you ever looked at fractals? Those are just about best interpretation of lsd closed eye visuals. Open eye is very much like the background art from Nightmare Before Christmas. Very dark and pointy, edgy and evil.

Mushrooms are more like Dali. Everything seems to be melting or stretching.

MDMA and MDA tend to give me a tribal tatoo visual. Like a shadow on any pale object. Skin, walls, ceilings......

As for the mental aspect......it is different every single time.

Oh....and I can't draw or paint and it sucks 'cause I'd love for others to see what is in my head......


Zeb -

I've always been very very spiritual. When I started to drugs it was mostly to see what it was all about. What I discovered was that there is an apect to certain drugs that is very much like being in a deep meditative trance. Mushroom especially.
Also, the way that I view religion...all religion becomes a bit deeper or a bit different when I am high. Sometimes this is a good thing sometimes it is a bad thing. AMT sucked all the spirit out of the world for me. The world was a machine. I was a machine nothing more. Being very spiritual this was not what I expected. However, though it was not the most enjoyable, I decided to see where it would take me as opposed to just letting it become a bad trip(it was still bad). What it ended up doing was giving me a new way to think about my dyslexia and my panic attacks. Though I still have problmes with numbers, I have since taken on some accounting at work. I also got over my fear of driving (not while high....after) and finally at 29 got my licence and bought a car. Though I don't have any desire to do AMT again, I am quite intrigued by the fact that it seemd to tweak my perceptions enough to make me believe that as a machine I could be reprogramed to get past certain obsticals. This kind of thing by the way is what facinates me about drugs. Psychedelics especially.

But, like everything else in my life I have to be honest about things. Do I drugs for the spiritual aspect? Not often. Do I do it for the mental exploration? Sometimes. Out of curiosity? More often than not. Because I enjoy the high? DING DING DING. However, if the trip leads to something else, and for me it usually does, I count myself lucky. More than once I have found a new way too look at a problem while tripping. Most of the time tunnel vision is impossible. There is an opening of the mind that allows new possabilities and new concepts to flow more freely. The down side, sometimes they don't make sense the next day......

DISCLAIMER: I DO NOT THINK THAT DRUGS ARE A GOOD THING. THEY ARE NOT SAFE. THEY ARE NOT A GAME. AND I HATE LITTLE STUPID PARTY HEADS WHO DUMB SHIT AND GET HURT. HOWEVER, JUST LIKE DRIVING OR DRINKING OR SKYDIVING OR SNOWBOARDING......DRUGS CAN BE SAFER (NEVER SAFE) IF YOU TAKE PROPER PRECAUTIONS.
Also, I admit I am an anomally. I will delve into my bad trips just as deeply as I do my good ones. I am just so damned interested in seeing when they are going and what my brain is trying to tell me (if anything at all) My S/O on the other hand.....he is Captain Denial. He bad trips on everything. And thinks I am a freak because I enjoy my bad trips as much as my good ones.

Anyhoo.....off my soapbox......