I really fucking hate my life.

[mburbank]

Unlike me as it is to be serious, 'I feel your pain' Fathom.

Not that life since that age hasn't offered it's fare share of problems, many of them with much huger real world consequences, but never, never, never did I feel as helpless in the face of life's general crap storm as I did at your age.

You are just to the point where it can gradually, gradually start to get better. Hang in there, and as often as possible, just let it go. You are stuck in a moment of your life that is all about marking time. It'll pass, just slowly.