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Dr. V · #1

I’m still processing what he wrote today. I’m honestly in shock. I wish there was anything we could do for him.

We love you man.
We’ll always be here for you.

zeldasbiggestfan · #2

I love you so much, Roger.I'll always, always be willing to take in any form of media you produce. You've been so good to us over the years, I hope you know how much this place meant to me in high school and now. It was my little comfy hidey hole I could always come to. I hope one day you're able to laugh again.

Seriously, thank you. I look forward to seeing you in the future, whenever you're comfortable with letting us back in your life. We love you.

Hugs and kisses, brother. I'll be sure to hug you if I ever see you in the real world. I know you don't typically drink, so I'll get you a fancy Jones instead of a beer

Guitar Woman · #3

I'm still working my way through that whole post. It's a hard fucking read.

Rog, this might not be much solace, but over the years your website has brought joy and laughter to me and more people than I'll ever meet in my life. I hope you can find at least a little happiness in that thought.

Nick · #4

I'd known about it, but even now it's still hard to think about. Rog's strength is astounding.

I may not have been around this site as much as I had when I was in my teens but it's always been on my tool bar and I'd always check in to see how everyone was.

I-Mockery will never be the same without Re.

Dr. V · #5

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Originally Posted by Nick

I-Mockery will never be the same without Re.

That's for damn sure.

Chojin · #6

I really had no idea Re was even unbalanced, and I'd talked to Roger only a couple days before it happened, so it really came out of nowhere to me. I've been talking about it every now and again since then and it always makes me a) depressed, and b) thankful for what I have.

MarioRPG · #7

I'm not even sure how I can express myself after reading that. I'll try to avoid cliches and mean everything I write here.
I have lots of great memories of I-Mockery and I'm grateful for Re's contributions to it. The words in that article are quite powerful, and it was heart-wrenching to read how amazing of a person she truly was. Rog, you have done a gargantuan task of honoring her and continue to do so every day. Your journey to spread her ashes brought tears to my eyes even though I only knew her through her online presence. Thank you for sharing this deeply personal reflection and celebration of her life.

Maybe I'll email you, I don't know.

SuperYuriGagarin · #8

It was a hard read, and has taken me a while to process it.

This place will always mean something to me, even as I approach my 30's I still find myself showing new friends old articles or pages that I've always been able to return to for a laugh. Chief among the reasons for this has always been Rog and Re. Their manic enthusiasm for all things weird has had an immeasurable impact on my life and it's no question i-mock is going to remain an important time in my life. Her loss is staggering and I direly hope she's found peace.

If you ever read this Rog, I just want to say: I know I can't even come close to truly feeling what you're feeling now, but I've been close enough to it several times in my life that I know no amount of platitudes can really make a difference. Loss like this puts people in a dark place. People often think of it as some kind of dark tunnel with a light at the end of it. But the truth is, it's more like a maze, seemingly every direction teases you with the light being just out of reach only to hit dead end after dead end, but there is always a way out. There's no real trick to it, there's no secret strategy, no map, no clue hidden in a riddle or song, just perseverance. Eventually you'll find your way out, and though the light you step into might not seem as bright as it did before, it might be enough. From the bottom of my heart I hope you persevere Rog. If anyone deserves to have some light back in their life it's you.

AChimp · #9

I was really sorry to hear about what happened. These forums were a huge part of my life in my high school and university days, and Re was a big part of what made this community great.

Back in the ezboard days, I was PMing Re trying to get her to do a painting for me. I drew up a really elaborate sketch of what I thought it should look like, and her response was, "No, because if you're good enough to make that sketch, you're good enough to do it yourself."

When Rog said in his post how Re always tried to make the people around her better, I immediately thought of that moment.

Nick · #10

Just seeing Rog and Re together, or seeing Re do anything you would never have suspected it at all.

soundtest · #11

Thank you for writing this Rog. I don't have any words to offer (I've tried writing this for half an hour and can't come up with anything that doesn't sound like a cliche). Just know I'm glad you shared it and we're all thinking of you and will always be here for you when you are ready.

Like others, this site was a huge part of my life in the 2000s and though I never met any of you, I consider all you weirdos in this unique space of the web my internet family.

Esuohlim · #12

I'm sure no one is clamoring for MILHOUSE FROM THE INTERNET to weigh in here, but Rog was a big influence on my sad, sorry teenage life and now as an adult I've really come to admire him as more than just a funny internet guy. Deep down he doesn't seem to have a cynical bone in his body, and he's kind, and thoughtful, and good-hearted, and optimistic, and it's like one big, twisted cosmic joke that this all happened. It's fucked up.

This hit me pretty hard and I've never met either of them. Goes to show how much this place meant to me and what kind of community Rog and Re cultivated here. The small solace here is that Rog has 20 years of wonderful memories with Re that he gets to carry for the rest of his life.

Spetsnaz · #13

I just saw the I-Mockery upload on Youtube about this. Having lost someone I considered my world as well, I can appreciate what RoG is going through. There is nothing I can say that will ease your burden or make feel better or even forget for a second, but I can say that you are not alone RoG.

I wish I had more to offer than just a simple sorry.

WhiteRat · #14

Read this tonight and it hits extremely close to home. My brother took his own life 5 months ago. Suicide is so awful.

Tadao · #15

Man, I'm sorry WhiteRat, RoG and everyone else who has had a loved one commit suicide. I'm sure I have said about my brothers suicide her many times, I seem to not be able to not talk about. It was a week or so before Halloween, so my family is never found of seeing things hanging in trees every year.

It's not so fresh for us anymore and the hardest part was another brother not wanting our brothers memory to fade from us. We are a pretty tight family.

Colonel Flagg · #16

So much tragedy among us all. A close friend of mine committed the ultimate act many years ago - I still think about it, and wonder if I missed anything. He was very good at keeping things secret.

My sincere condolences for any and all who've had to weather such horror, and have the strength to continue onward.

Jeff The Ninja · #17

I know I havent posted on here in almost a decade but I just want to say that I sincerely hope that you can come away from this stronger than you were before.

Greenskullkid · #18

Damn this is sad and unexpected...

Skulhedface · #19

If it's any solace, she may have saved another life tonight: Mine.

I'm not going to go into any real detail but I've been suffering worsening depression since my teens and as I get nearer and nearer to 40, I can say it really didn't get any better. I've tried treatments, medicines, counselors, therapy, and just about everything else under the sun until I've come to accept that my brain is just wired different. Somehow, reading all those words Roger wrote allowed me to find some solace, some perspective, and some will to fight for another day... and hopefully many more to come.