OK, Seriously

[James]

OK, this isn't totally helping.

My primary objective is to see this guy removed from her life, at least in a relationship position. My secondary objective is to make her talk to me again.

Yesterday, I sent her an e-mail apologizing for how I acted. I was a little mad an upset when I found out they got back together, and I came off as such. I didn't insult her or anything, but I was kind of giving her the third degree. "You're going out with Dave? Dave as in your ex, Dave? Dave as in, he hoped you'd die, Dave?"

And I asked her to just PLEASE sit and think about what she's doing. I quoted her on a few things she said, about what he did to her, and how she's never been in a relationship where she wasn't treated like shit. About how she convinces herself that things will be different, and people change. About how she knows she needs to forget about him, but she can't be alone.

I told her that I wanted her to talk to me at least one last time, so that if she really doesn't want to talk to me anymore, we could say some proper goodbyes, instead of her blowing me off and hating me. And she just won't talk to me. At all. I even tried to tell her I was sorry about her brother (Yesterday was the anniversary of his death, it turns out). She wouldn't even acknowledge me.

I asked someone else what I should do, and she said something along the lines of that I should forget her, and not care about someone who puts themselves in that position willingly. She herself was in an abusive relationship, and she says it's this girl's problem if she blows me off and goes crawling back to this fuckhead. But I can't just not care about people, period, let alone stop caring about someone.

Ah well. Just another chapter in my "Why I hate women, and don't believe in love" book.