The Rage Virus has taken me.

[James]

As opposed to the Rape Virus, which unfortunately, has also taken me.

-Since this thread would get moved to Loveline anyway, I'm starting it here. And yes, this thread DOES involve a girl! OH FUCK A MEMBER OF THE OPPOSITE SEX JAMESMAN IS ON THE LOOSE AGAIN!
-I'm not looking for advice, just opinions. People always seem to think I make these threads so they can run my life for me. I just want input, to inform myself on how you hu-mans life your Earth lives.


Over the summer, a 2-year-friendship was quietly ended. It was ended due to things that infuriated and disgusted me. However, none of this ever came up. I told them to pretty much never talk to me again, and they obliged (to the point of not even responding to me saying that). So it's safe to assume the hate is mutual, though I still have no idea why they would be angry at me.

Since then, I've dealt with a lot of pent-up anger over them and the situation. And that anger has translated over into affecting other friendships, to the point where I feel the need to end other friendships simply because they can be associated to this person in some way. It's also prevented me from bothering to make friends with anyone else. Since this happened in August, and it's now March, I'm thinking there's a problem. I'm still angry, and now my friend list is significantly shorter (anticipating clever jokes about me having no friends).

My thoughts are that by having all those emotions, and the friendship ending as quietly and confusingly as it did, the emotions had nowhere to be vented. This leads me to think I should talk to the ex-friend and unleash the fury.

This isn't about some sort of revenge. They're not worth trying to hurt, especially since I know they WOULDN'T be hurt, and putting any effort into trying and failing would just hurt me. This is about trying to get these emotions out before I go crazy (which has already happened). I'd be willing to admit that there are some lingering hopes I could hurt them, but that's because it is human instinct to want revenge. But I stand firm that revenge wouldn't be the motive, for reasons I just stated.

Now, does this make any sense to any of you? If you've been in similar situations, how did you deal with anger that just won't go away? If you confronted the person or situation making you angry, did getting it all out make you feel better?