May 26th, 2007, 09:12 PM
Anyway, I didn't come here with the intent to fuck with you...
I just saw some of your old mockeries and it made my blood boil at how little compassion or understanding you showed for my situation, and how you should be neutered and never be allowed to adopt because you are evil.
Anyway, I'll tell you about a few experiences of mine: Yes, I decided not to be a mormon because I realized the whole religion was bullshit. I went there looking for girls who shared my belief and passion for eternal romance, but all I found was boring girls who wern't veyr pretty and didn't know a THING about anime! But hey, I found a few that I thought I might like anyway. One had a boyfriend, and the other I never got around to asking out because I was too shy. I went to the sunday school once in a while, hoping to find more there, but all the others were kind of ugly. But anyway, every week I went there, I got more and more depressed, tired, on bored. It got even WORSE when I found out that the girls in the mormon church arn't veyr interested in dating, let alone marrying men who don't go on missions. On a mission, you have to go far away, perhaps to some 3rd world country full of strife and war, and risk being kidnapped or killed or something! You have to give up tv for 2 years, as well as computer and video games. All you can watch is... Ugh... DISNEY movies once in a while! You can't even call your family except at christmas. I was very reluctant to go, but if it meant having an eternal wife, I was willing to do anything. Oh yeah, and don't forget all the covenants of the church like no beer, coffee, and I think even Coca Cola, and all the other pious stuff. I was EXTREMLY willing if it meant an eternal wife and eternal fertility. But the church was the only sanctuary I ever found from mainstream christiantiy, heartlessly telling me that I could not have the one thing my heart desired in heaven, not my seed would be forever dead. Well, then I met this girl on the internet who I liked, and she liked me, too. (AS A FRIEND! SO DON'T SAY I'M A TOTAL LOOSER!) I actually became very infatuated with her. I THOUGHT I loved her, but I see now that I was just blind. She HAD a boyfreind, but I didn't care. I really believed that someday, I would marry her. She wasn't a mormon, but she believed in eternal romance. I asked her if she'd like to meet someday, and she said yes, she'd like that. Well, it went on like that for a while, and then YOU bastards went and pissed her off! You went and offended her and made fun of her and she wanted me to delete her account as I found out when I got back from church that day. Well, after a bit, I talked to her, and then said she didn't want to meet because her mom was watching oprah about internet stalkers. Well, this was my first case of heartbreak. Not only did a nice girl blow me off and all my dream go out the window, but it meant that I would have to go on a mission in order to attract a girl. As you can guess, it was very depressing. A bit after that, I snapped and got a sudden craving for Yuri. I went to church 1 or 2 more times, and then, I stopped going. I couldn't take the misery anymore. And after hearing about how snotty the female missionaries were from my mom, it increased it to the point where I questioned the relgions validity. It was looking more and more like the religion wasn't true. It was really painful because my last hope was melting away before my eyes. I went on christiananime.net, beind the masocist that I am, and what should I expect but a bunch of mindless sheep telling me I won't ever "know the joys of family". I had figured, though that maybe marriage wouldn't be nececary in heaven, and that I all that was needed was true love. But no. That wasn't good enough for them. It's SIIIIIIN to have sex out of wedlock! No! It's MARRIAGE! A fucking little piece of paper that makes a relationship holy! NOT how the two love eachother! No. They wouldn't compromise or be open minded, and that really pissed me off! Well, this went on for about a year, until about a month ago, I started to question christianity itself. I found TONS of flaws and false prophecies in it. And then I discovered the joy of breaking out of a mental prison. THAT was heaven!
Now, I look at women all I want without the fear of "commiting adultery with my heart" and all that fucking bullshit. I realized Jesus is a complete asshole offering me this dear "Either be neutered in heaven, or burn in hell!" And the christians telling my I was gonna burn in hell for every little fucking thing! I have to love an oppressive dictator who I've never even MET more than my own family, or I'll burn in hell! Fuck that shit! And I'm sick of being pissed off at homosexuals! I'm sick of these God damned hypocrits talking about fighting homosexuality in order to "preserve family values" while they advocate the DESTRUCTION of romance and sex and reproduction in heaven! FUCK THEM! The bible is full of God commanding rape and killing innocent CHILDREN! The whole religion is BULLSHIT and am I GLAD to be out of it and not think satan is behind every question I have!
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