I'M FUCKING NOT DRUNK BECAUSE MY FRIENDS BAILED DUE TO SOME STUPID FRAT CRAP ENOUGH AND IN A B AD MOOD and now miss kazuki and cody and hannah and chelsea and half my exes, really
Fuck the other half, selfish lunatic cows
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Got talked into seeing a psychiatrist the other day, fuck withdrawn. Committed my life to being outgoing and social and emphasizing my good qualities when all I ever wanted was to be left the fuck alone
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I usually attack myself mentally because it feels like a blanket's being wrapped around my head, then the cyclical thoughts start and they spin down, down down, down, and I get exhausted and don't want to do anything and feel like i'm going to choke on something pushing up through the bottom of my teeth, and you have to get really fucking pissed off because you switch over to anger, spin up, and spin out of that fucking deadness
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Also why I post here, I think it's the definition of a psychological outlet. HIDE THE SHAME, DON'T LET ANYONE KNOW YOU'RE AN INTERNET PERSON drink drink drink
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