Jun 23rd, 2005, 05:37 PM
just introducing myself
ok, here we go again. why do I find myself doing this again and again, this damn forum is harder to quit than heroine, you leave and get on with your life, you make real friends and have actual firmament based love affairs, you get yourself an education, you land your dream job, what need is there for internet relations with a largely american based bunch of political misfits and retards? I thought perhaps I had come to gloat, to sneer down my pretty little nose at those who 'have nothing better to do ', but thats not the reason. I was laying out in the sun reading Promethea, (you may have read it, if you haven't then i am sorry), I was struck with the idea that the Immateria and the internet share certain qualities, beautiful fictions made reality (and ugly ones too), new languages, memes and symbol structures, and this place, well this place with its macabre, cynical, knife twisting sensibilities feels like a Parisian brothel that caters for expensive tastes, the trouble is after you become a regular there are two paths. The first is emotional involvement. this is the whore with the big eyes who you fall in love with, she doesnt love you back and the thought of her being with other men is unendurable so you leave. On the second path you become a nightly regular, sucking at the tit of countless hookers, enjoying every one but feeling your shame as you do it , so one day you stop going. but every so often you pay that exquisite house a visit and for a brief moment you are satisfied.
So I am back in the whore house- for now- with a new name, same old attitude.
so who's going to be my whore this time?
kisses
Swimini
the mockery poster formally known as Cherry.
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