I am bad at eating

[Jixby Phillips]

I am not looking to lose weight at all. The problem is that there is so little I can actually eat without wanting to vomit. Generally I dislike food. MOST food I just hate, and absolutely can't stand to eat. What I can stand to eat is very limited to me. I'm like the pickiest eater in the universe. Sometimes I'll eat a hamburger and fries every fucking day of the week. And when I eat a hamburger, it's plain, just meat and bun, with fries and ketchup. If even a spec of lettuce is on the burger, it makes me gag and I have to spit it out. That's what most food does to me, just makes me gag. The stuff I like I don't even like that much. I just eat it because I have to eat something and it's what I hate the least. Eating is always an awful joyless chore.

I am very much afraid to try a lot of things, and that's all my problem, but it seems like what I do try just tastes so disgusting to me. Also, its not like I have tons of different food around the house to try. I'd have to spend money if I want to try something new. Usually I put off eating untill I feel like I'm going to faint unless I eat (and a lot of times I'm at school or its late at night or its while I'm working, so I HAVE to wait).

I mean, I get by fine, considering how fucked up my eating is. Sometimes I'll eat something healthy if it's something I can stand and actually in the house. But I wanna do something about it before I like, die or something.