Bad, Bad Headache

[Schimid]

I've been a pretty lucky kid.

My entire life, I've never really had headaches. I don't know what it is; I get dizzy sometimes, and it hurts to shake my head, but in contrast to what I'm feeling right now, those are not headaches. This is a headache to make you wonder if every other headache was infatuation, and this is love, oh God this is deep love.

This headache, is a life experience.

Like, I went to bed with it around midnite, and it kept me up until 1, whereafter I dozed into that comfortable medium between sickness and sleep, the mercy God put in your brain, what pained people pray for. It's something like nirvana.

It woke me back up at five, and it's worse. Medicine of any kind has never ever worked for me and no-one believes me. It's true, though. It doesn't kill the pain, just puts it through a filter; medicine roughs it up a little, spits on it and leaves it in an alley. Scares it a little, but it doesn't leave town. I cake on three layers of HEAD-ON and take a pill of ibuprofen just in case.

I get back to bed. When I turn off the light and close my eyes, I can feel my brain literally burning away. When I close my eyes, I can see words burning too, and I can't believe it. Two words are above anything, the word "City" and the word "She", both in 36 point font, they stay above the flames while everything else burns. I guess that's supposed to be a source of inspiration, its supposed to mean something. It doesn't mean anything to me, though.

What I'm trying to ask is, and I'm being completely serious about this:

Is this a headache?