There is a gay in every family, afterall.

[Geggy]

Recently I found out from my mom that my second cousin, let's name him John...wait actually that is his real name, just came out of the closet. I practically grew up with the guy and I took it as a big shock. How could I have been so blind? He's your typical gay man with a lavishing lifestyle that's equivilant to the gays. He drives a Saab, he's clean cut, he's a vegan, he HATES football, and he does the hand thing when he talks. He's been living with a guy "friend" in his exspensive condo by the Marina Bay in Quincy, MA. That struck me as odd because his condo has only one bedroom. Now I have not seen John in few months. He is planning a get together at a Lebanese resturaunt tomorrow to publicly announce his engagement with his "friend". Usually the first time I meet someone who is gay, they would acknowledge their sexual preference or someone else would hint it out to me. I mean, I'm cool with people being gay. If they want to be gay, then go ahead and be gay. It's ther choice. Why should I let it bother me? Just so as long they don't cross the line such as groping or kissing me or I will fuck them up. But when it comes to someone you've known for a long time and all of a sudden he's found his life's true calling that he is a homo, it could get real fucking awkward. I try not to think about the past wondering if we've ever hugged funny or if he was aroused when he helped pulled out my loose tooth when I was 7 year old and he was 13, because his hand was fondling with my mouth, only to masturbate to the experience later that night in his bed? Tomorrow I will see him for the first time since he came out of the closet. What do I say to him without coming off as an idiot, which I'm so well known to be an idiot in an awkward situation? Do I say "Hey, man...I heard you came out of the closet, man...that's great, man, I'm happy for you, man. Let me buy you a drink, man." I feel compelled to say "man" after every sentence so he wouldn't get the wrong idea. Or should I not even say anything at all and let him flaunt his homosexuality in which I loathe the fact that gays has the tendency to make a huge deal of their sexuality? I mean, they even got their own fucking parade! It's so fucking silly. I just feel the obligation not to turn the get together into a big gay festival if I ever bring it up. Tomorrow is going to be interesting. Yep yep. You can tell that I'm nervous, can't you? Haha.