I've Decided I'm Happy to Never Have a Girlfriend

[James]

Because the last thing I want to do to a girl who I claim to care about, is treat her like all boyfriends apparently treat their girls; Like shit. :/

If I ever have a girlfriend, I wouldn't want to cheat on her, or take her for granted, or abuse her, or exploit her insecurities to do my bidding, or make her my slave, or anything like that. But they all seem like natural phases of a relationship. So fuck that. If I like a girl, she means too much to me for me to be the one to hurt her.

Besides, I'd rather them think of me as a good friend, than a bad (ex)boyfriend. Someone who they know they can trust, and who cares about them, and who they never have to worry about treating like number 2, or 4, or 16. Who they can just expect to be waiting for them like a puppy at the front door, after they're done talking to their REAL friends, and their shit boyfriends who they LOVE and FUCK and want to be with FOREVER.

Yes, I'm perfectly fine being a good friend. Beats the hell out of being the guy she cries to the good friend about. Right?

Now I'm angry and sad.